relationships...

relationships are a funny thing, whether they be a friendship or romantic. in some cases they are one and the same. you put you all into it, you love, your trust, your happiness and it can be amazing it can last forever, or it can simply end. i see a lot of things on facebook that say if you are friends with someone for more than 7 years it will last a life time. in some cases this is true. i am incredibly lucky to say that i have this, we can spend months not talking but get us in a room together and you wouldnt know, and they are the people i know will always have my back, whether that means staying at my house when the thought of being alone is too scary, tidying my room because i simply cant do it or getting my drunk and texting me how amazing i am, i always know without a doubt they love me. and for that i dont think i could ever repay them, and hopefully they know how much they mean to me. sometimes, however, its the people who come into your life at the hardest of times that can be the most amazing of friends, sending pictures that will make you laugh, or stupid cat videos, listening to you rant, or buying you cake and tea and letting you cry. i really am lucky to have these amazing people in my life and i dont think i would have gotten through this past year without them, because i only have so much strength to deal with everyday life, and they have given me so much hope.

so in all im lucky i guess thats what im trying to say.

romantic relationships i guess are another thing. it is easy to think that what you have is the best thing your ever going to get. recently a lot of people around me have gone through break ups, just as i have, and it sucks. whether you were the one to do the breaking up or not it still hurts and it still feels like the end of your world. but all i can say to people is it can only get better. there are bigger things waiting for you out there. so i know it hurts, i mean its been most of a year since it happened and i still find it hard, but bad things happen so that you can do bigger and brighter things and so that you can meet that person who makes you truly happy. someone despite your many problems, despite feeling sad, depressed or anxious in normal situations will stand by you. people change and grow all the time, and some people deal with heartbreak, change, or simply life in different ways. but one thing i believe in is honesty, always be honest and true to everyone in your life, and sometimes that means hurting them but it will hurt less than lying. always be thankful for what you had, whether thats romantically or in a friendship, because at that time when you had them in your life, it was happy and true, but it might just not be what you need or want anymore. and dont feel pressured to move on, everyone moves at different paces, some people can meet someone new straight away but others cant, and it might seem selfish of them or as though what you had meant nothing, but sometimes thats how people deal with things and thats okay. i keep thinking iv moved on and then i think i havent, but that just makes me me and im okay with that. just do what you need to do to make yourself happy, whatever that might be.

and in all honesty its kind of exciting not knowing what the future holds, who we might meet and the adventures we might have! i mean i went away last year for 5 weeks not knowing anyone and i met some truly amazing people and had the most amazing time. so do look back and remember what you had but look to the future because theres so much to look forward and do some crazy stupid things while your young.

and remember that your always surrounded by people who love you such as family and friends, and if they are anything like mine they might be slightly crazy but they are also crazy loyal and have got me through both this break up and the depression that has plagued me the last few months. and they will be there for you too, and you wont even have to ask them to be.